My Poetry

Giving Up

Apathy knows no bounds
Taking pleasure in my pain
Straining for relief
Or the truth I beseech
Fun was only fun
I need so much more
Emotion relentless
Trying to suppress
There's no way to win
I always lose

I'm tired of this game
I'm sitting out this time
I've never given up
I've always given in
But I don't want to play
It only ends in loss
My heart is too weak
For the goal I seek

Treasure not worth the pain
I'm driving myself insane
Overanalyzing, overdosing
Whimsical rationalization
I want to go away
Far away from here
But mind is body's company
Without which I am dead
But I am dead already
There is no way to win
I've always given in
Now I'm giving up
Now I'm giving up





Falling

Dazed.
Confused.
Twisting and turning as I
Fall through the rabbit hole
Darkness envelops me
Absence of light
I'm afraid of the dark
I'm afraid of falling
Yet I've already fallen
Is this dream a reality?
Or is all reality a dream?
I wonder as I wander
I yearn for stimulation
I yearn for truth
Mind, body, and soul
Battling for position
A civil war
Inside

No longer a rabbit hole
Now a black hole
Sucking the life out of me
No source
No destination
Just falling
I'm falling
I've fallen
I've fallen
I fell.





Pawn

I don't want to be a pawn
I'm always someone's pawn
It's not that I'm asking to be king
Or even queen for that matter
But for once I'd like to sit on the back row
Oversee the game
Let me be a knight
Or a rook
Moving one step at a time never wins
A pawn can never defeat the king
Ever
And the only time a pawn can kill a queen
Is when she's not paying attention

I'm already on the side of the board
I lost
I'd rather be on the floor
Than sitting
Watching
Waiting
Dreaming
Heaving
Wondering
Watching.
Waiting.

My Latest Poem
I just wrote this one... it's pretty true! w00t.

I get.
Attached.
Too easily.